Shirorina's Blog

She didnt do her quiz due to unwell-ness (she texted me as her reason).. Next class I met her and asked when is she going to do the quiz.. because I was waiting for her before I can give back the marked quiz  to other students.. and this was her asnwer to me.. “Alaa Miss.. tak payah buat la.. bagi sy kosong pun tak pe..” I felt really pissed hearing that. She was not responsible towards herself.. Not feeling guilty.. Not feeling even a little worry for not doing a quiz..I have observed her since the first class. She talked too much..she sang and sometimes very loud.. may be want to get attention.. even though I was in front..I feel she didnt respect me.. I just urged her and her friends to silent.. Whenever there was a lab exercise she sought help from others.. never want to try by herself first..

Dalam hati “Hei.. org mcm ko ni la yg menyusah kan aku.. bile failure rate tinggi aku yg kene menjawab ngn KP.. aku tgh berusaha utk kurangkan failure rate dan kalo boleh tade org yg fail dlm klas aku.. ko boleh menjawab ngn aku mcm tu.. bla bla bla.. ” My face turned sour..  but I didnt want to affect others students mood cause some of them were really show their interest in class.. very enthusiastic and that made me enjoy the class because of that “some students”.

And because of that I had put a detested feeling towards her. I know this is not good. I shouldnt be like this. But what can I do.. I reminisce.. thinking back when I was a student.. I was not a good student to my lecturer but I never show disrespect.. I just kept to my heart and to the worst I just talked about my satisfaction with some closed friends..  Hmm.. apa lagi kutuk lecturer la.. ade je yg tak puas hati.. assignment susah.. byk sgt assignment.. lecturer pun ada kutuk aku jgk.. dia ckp aku tak pandai.. ayat english aku mase buat thesis berterabur.. mind you.. My English is not that bad.. just that the copy was not edited properly.. supervisor aku ckp aku malas.. tapi mmg betul.. aku mmg malas. keje last minute.. siang malam tak tdo..  but at least I still manage to get average results.. other people judged it as average results but for me it was good results…If only I worked a bit harder.. If only I could start a bit earlier.. See.. how regretful I am when thinking back of the past..

So..This is the reason why I dont want my students to regret for everything they did in the past when they realize that things could be different if they do it right the first time.. but how to make them understand such situation when they have not gone thru it.. I also think this is a kind of retribution.. this is what I get in return for not being a good student to my lecturer maybe..

Note: Semalas-malas aku.. berjaya jugak aku jadi lecturer.. maksudnya malas aku ni malas yg boleh diterima lagi (ye ke?).. tapi student aku ni malas dia lain macam je..

Yeah yeah.. It has been like ages ( I think times move so slow) since this blog was updated. I did feel like writing and I know I have the ability to do so. But, my laziness has overcome everything. This could not be the reason anymore for not writing in this blog. My teaching schedule was not packed as compared with previous semester. And for this semester also I am teaching the same subject and one new subject that is the intermediate level of the “same subject”. This gives me more leisure time but I think I need to manage the given leisure time wisely so that  it wont be wasted! I plan to do research so as to get confirmation in my position as quick as I can (hopefully by next year). We already had a title and some guidelines given from the senior lecturer. But I need to get rid of my laziness first so that I can move my fat ass and work on the project!

New Year 2010 – There is nothing I wish other than I want to be a good person, a good teacher to my student and that I have good relationship with people around me. I pray that I will lead a stable and blissful life with my family. And I also wish that no people will do me and my family harm. I really hope that people I know and to be known are harmless. I pray that Allah will protect me and my family. I really dont want to experience the pain anymore again. I have no more strength and I am no physically and emotionally able to endure the same painful. It really hurt me and my family. When we were hurted so much.. we could hardly forgive and forget. But we mean no revenge. We are not prophet and even a prophet-like.. far from that. It just when we cant forget.. we cant forgive.. Let times heal everything.. InshaAllah! I really learn a lesson  for what happened on 17 DEC 2008! Pejam celik pejam celik.. It has been a year.. But you just cant get the things out of your head..!! There comes a saying.. “Cakap senang la.. cuba kena kat batang idung sendiri.. senang tak senang.. huhu.. Lu pikir la sendiri ye.. ” ~~ChEErsS~~

Sekadar gambar hiasan... Kemangkatan Sultan Johor @ 22 JAN 2010

I may be old but young at heart.. Heee

Kak Zai aka Mama Bed @ 16-12-09 1205
Hepi bday! Bila upacara potong kek?

Arep @ 16-12-09 1205
Happy birthday ina. May all your dreams come true

Izah @ Glasgow @ 16-12-09 0233
Ina, happy 28th birthday.. Orang dah lame tue awk baru msk 28 eh

Amalina (my-6mths-preggy-lil-sis-in-law) @ 16-12-09 0823
Kak Ina.. hapy besday 2 u.. smg panjang umur n dimurahkan rezeki..

Zainabi (my x-Hi Tech colleague) @ 16-12-09 0907
Selamat ari jadi.. Dah tua ko erk..
Siut je ko zai.. tade ucapan lain ke nak bagi ? Mcm la ko muda sgt dari aku..

Erfa aka Kak Long (my future big-sis-in-law) @ 16-12-09 0935
Selamat Hari Lahir. Semoga dipanjangkan umur, dimurahkan rezeki, diberikan kesihatan yang sempurna dan dipermudahkanbertemu jodoh.. Amin
I loiikkeee.. the best.. the last four words.. heheh

Julia Heng Yun Nam Hair Care @ 16-12-09 1117
YNCH wishes U a Happy Birthday. Have a wonderfultime on your special day.
Biasa la tu.. Jaga hati pelanggan.. But I shud say this.. Thanks to YNCH.. Theres no more hair loss!

Kak Huda @ 16-12-09 1200
She sang a birthday song thru phone..

My Parents @ 16-12-09 1311
Alright..happy besday 2 u..
Is that all..??  hmmm

Zarin @ 17-12-09 1223
Hepi belated birthday ina..

Kak Maz, Malik, family, colleagues, friends, xtremevbtalk, jobstreet and all the wishes that I had received.. Many thanks to  everyone for your thoughtfulness on my birthday.. All the wishes + gifts really brightened up my day..

Note: I will prefer not to hear to MIX fm.. Things really change now.. I think I am getting old.. aint I ?

Well oh well.. I am still at the office.. finishing the marking.. I am like hell now but I am the best damn lecturer that my students have ever met.. HAHAH! Poyos!!

My PC time 12.03 AM.. bile nak balik ni ??

I think I need to escape and be away from eveything in tamageS.
I find it hard to breathe here. Ohh pls.. I need some fresh air..

I am drowning in marking tests, assignments, project, finishing up the carry marks and soon exams answer paper..

Serabut tak serabut.. I have to finish them up.. !

A massage therapy may be the solution to what I need now... Huhu.. So relaxing..

Last night.. Barclays Premiership Man U vs Liv… 2-0

Torres scored the first and the seond goal.. tak igt sapa name..

I watched the game with Kak Zai who was not into football (me also not a fan but i love to watch such games)..Sepanjang menonton –>
1. Na.. hensemnye mamat ni Na.. mesti dah kahwen kan..
2. yg Pak Tam ni pun hensem jgk kan.. walaupun hitam
3. Nape Beckham tak main Na..
Banyak betol soalan..
Student sebelah rumah pulak.. bising yg amat..
Student Nazir tiba2 msg.. Miss, kalau MU menang sy banje miss esok..
Sy reply.. tak payah banje la.. sy tak nak MU menang.. sy nak LIV menang..
Nazir reply.. Tak dapat la nak menang.. miss tgk la betapa cekapnye keeper MU..
Sy reply.. awal2 je.. tgk la jap2 lagi..
Petang nanti jumpe Nazir.. cekapnye Goal Keeper MU.. heheh..

All in all, I am happy for Liv. Game mlm td mmg bes! 

I think I need a surrogate to do all the jobs !
Sy rasa penat.. tak saba nak tunggu cuti sem..
Things I am looking forward to semester break..
Kursus di Penang..
Cisab Gnihcaet Course di Kacnup Mala..
My housemate Wedding..